Thankfully those early months are nothing but photographic blurs on my phone and blog. I never miss those early months (not sorry) and it's been crazy but nice coming into the 9-10 month period. Nice because there is far less unknowns and a lot more that these babies can do! Also making a comeback since November thanks to Drew is my motivation to workout. When the twins came j thought the only way I want to workout is at a gym, other than that I'll just sit on my couch all day long thank you very much. Looking back, I wasn't depressed but I most certainly had some heavy hitting baby blues... Not wanting to do anything and giving up on my body is definitely not in my nature. But thanks to a little virtual challenge to myself over the last few months, I've started to get my mojo back... Running, motivated, fighting for the things I want in life instead of just letting life happen.
It wasn't easy and it's definitely been a process.. It started with getting help with my diastasis by purchasing the Mutu program last October. As my core got stronger, my mind and the rest of my body has slowly followed suit. Nothing super noticeable to anyone but me but still progress. The end of November drew gave me a FitBit and I enjoyed tracking my steps, sleep, etc. only in the last month have I really set goals on my Fitbit and worked hard to hit those goals daily. I only made it to the gym a handful of times last month and I still hit my goals pretty often. (Yesterday's leaderboard) I've never been one to play video games or even games on my phone because I am terrible and lose quite easily before losing interest, but with my FitBit, only I am in control of winning, sort of like training. I love that no matter if I make it to the gym or even out of the house or my kids are sick, I can still hit my goals and "win" my game daily, even if I don't always kill it with my steps. My Fitbit has made me a happier and more active mom than I would be otherwise. My kids favorite part of the day is after the babies are in bed and we "Do workouts" in the playroom... Each person gets a few minutes to be the "gym teacher" and leads us through kicks, boxing, push-ups, etc. it tires them out even if we didn't make it outside for the day, and helps them get their energy out (and get me more steps!) before going to bed.
I've still got my work cut out for me. I really got back into running and finally moved to phase two for Mutu.... I made really good progress last month and I continue to adapt/change/fix what's not working and improve myself. Some days (ok most days) I wish this process was faster but then I remember that I want to make lasting changes in my life and those aren't made with quick fixes. Speaking of quick fixes, The $300 prescription hand cream my dermatologist recommended is working wonders on my hands (all my cuts are currently in some stage of healing!) and I'm feeling better in my overall health than I have in a long time. Now I just need that new gym of mine to open its doors so I can stop making the hour round trip drive to the original location (!).
I am not currently in persuit of the most perfect body I can attain...rather I am on a quest to achieve the most perfectly functioning body possible, one that can run and jump and play and lift and do whatever it wants without having to hold back. And I'll get there. If not this year then next year. But I'm certainly doing everything in my power to make this the year.
