middle littles holding hands... every day lately (!)

My middle littles

As the middle child (since the twins are so often clustered as a single unit these days), I have been trying really hard to give little a special time with just the two of us since sometimes when I look back at all the stuff I did with her brother, I feel terribly guilty. Little d got to do gymnastics, swim lessons, music lessons, library classes, art classes.... Just about everything under the sun, in his first almost three years of life we tried it! Poor baby girl is barely two but half her life I've been pregnant (and therefore super lamesauce) with her two brothers, not that having them out changes too much in the mommy is lame department. You may say she knows no different but I still feel that guilt of depriving her of some awesome experiences and one on one time with mommy.

lately I have recognized her love for the outdoors so while my MiL is still here I have tried to capitalize on that. It's not easy sneaking away for any length of time but I have tried to take her with me when I have needed to run errands, which she loves and she's still at a stage where I can bribe/distract her with a mint so that makes the trips even to toy stores super painless. Tied with her love of the outdoors is her love for her two bffs, so I try to make sure she can get out and see them at least once a day.

Blowing bubbles, playing in water, going on walks and being around her big brother also top that list.

It's not always easy but it is possible to spend one on one time with each of my two big littles even when the other two can be demanding.

I am trying to be more actively engaged with little d during Quiet time for the first hour of little a's nap, today we started reading lessons and did some things from his prek packet he was interested in. 

After a BBQ with family and friends tonight, I put on the Lego movie to calm down some of the residual craziness and offered it take little a in the stroller for a walk. 

Hearing her tell me "more stroller" was like music to my ears. We made a solid mile around the high school track in 17:30, dancing around to music that was probably five years old on my phone. But she loved it.

Today was hard. Lan doesn't seem to be responding to the medication for his reflux and I swear he didn't sleep longer than five minutes at a time all day.... He was downright miserable. And I joked about it with drew but I think I seriously need to start eliminating foods from my diet to see if it will give him any relief at

all... I love chocolate but certainly not more than I love my baby boy, so that will be the first one to go for the next week and I'll see where to go from there... Probably dairy but a life without cheese is like...  Being on whole30. Which I hated. But I will do for the sake of my babe. So let's hope it's just the chocolate for now mmkay?

We will figure this out eventually.